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The ever changing early 20’s madness.

It’s been a while since I last wrote on here and lots of things have changed for me. I’m still back in the Uk at home in the South of England, living with my parents. I started studying Early childhood at University in September ( I’ll have finished my first year end of May yaaay ) Before Starting Uni I also found out I’m Dyslexic, which explains a lot haha. Apologies for my poor spelling and grammar on my blog but If I worried about it too much id never post anything. I’m now working at a lovely Nursery as a Key worker, I’ve been single since November and I had my Tonsils out last week which is when  I actually spent time just re-reading over my blog remembering how much I enjoyed it.

I wish I had blogged each step of the way but sometimes we have to just get on with life and then reflect.

I’m at a stage now where I feel like i’m just putting one foot in front of the other.  I really like my course and find it so interesting but It still doesn’t make me feel fulfilled and happy with where I am right now, when essays are due It actually just becomes  really stressful. My last essay I wrote the day before it was due.  I want to change that. Trying to remember that I enjoy what I’m learning about and that I’m doing well so far is important, but I often just focus on how trapped it makes me feel. I’m sure 90% of students experience this feeling ( stats made up by Chloe’s head).

Becoming single has also been a very strange feeling. I go from feeling really empowered and free to then feeling like i’ve lost part of myself.  I could write my whole Blog on how i’ve felt but I want to write again to make myself think where do I go from here? Rather than still dwelling on the past and the, could have’s and should have’s. I feel like now is my time to fully let it all go. The bitterness, the disappointment and frustration. It sounds so cliche but I can see that this is my time to find out who I am.

I feel like all the things I would love to just write forever about are too jumbled in my head and personal/ annoying to pour out on my blog but I will do my best to involve people in a way I feel comfortable with. It’s a weird mix of wanting to just keep my blog private to be able to really just rant but I also really like the community it has brought me in the past. Bare with me 🙂

 

Any  wanna be positive thinkers out there want to join me on my journey?

Anyone who has no idea whats really going on in their life?

Anyone single and learnt to embrace it?

 

I want to end my first post with things i’m looking forward to and things that i will be blogging about.

  • Going to Dublin with my lovely friend Kim during the first weekend of June
  • Seeing florence and the Machine in Hyde park in July with My also lovely friend Ellie.
  • Going to stay in Weymouth for a week in August with my Dad ( feels mean to not mention he’s lovely too haha)
  • Visiting my friend (lovely) Cam in leeds also in August for a few days.

 

Thanks for reading. It’s good to be back

 

C x

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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